Large Glass Of Jealousy...

A Large Glass Of Jealousy With Ice


I watch you teasing and joking
With everyone around me,
Everyone but me...
People I consider to be
Among my closest friends,
Openly flirting.
Are you deliberately trying
to make me jealous?
Because you succeed.
Or do you just not care,
Unaware of how I feel?
My recent dreams
Aren't so far from real,
Portraying your actions
In a nutshell,
With the odd exaggeration.
Then I sit next to you...
I'm in agonising torment,
Trying to smile with you
And laugh at your jokes.
But the smiles are false
And my artificial face could crack
At any moment.
And when the shell
That is my face cracks apart
And crumbles away
You will see the raw emotion hidden
Away behind the mask.
You will see that my face
Is not laughing or smiling,
But frowning, screwed up tight,
Eyes wide shut
Icy from the frozen cold tears
Which tried to escape,
Like little droplets of sapphire
Being frozen like glaciers
As soon as they feel your presence.